愛は何であるか。。?

GOODBYE EVERYON!
i'm leaving...
JUGEM. haha. xD
yes. i decided to get a yaplog.
Because jugem doesn't let people comment me.
And it takes forever for the emoticons to load.
And i can't even interact with other people this way.
Man.. i want friends.
OKay? hahahah. xD
What a lame excuse.
Well, here's my new blogg!!

new blog

Boo. Shucks. I'm so busy this weekend..
I couldn't even finish my myspace layout
and change my blog layout since it's not halloween anymore..
etc.,
Ufufu.. well.. omg! i want to watch my name is kim sam soon again!
it's been more than 2 years since i watched it.
And now i want to watch it.! >_<. i can't find any of the episodes on th internet because it's licensed. boo.=P
So.. i've been thinking..
BUNNY! YOU SHOULD GET ME A "MY LOVELY SAM-SOON" dvd from the chinese store that sells all these dramas. hee hee. that's my christmas wish from you.
heh.
Well.. im just going to write down my whole christmas wish list cuz i think i'm going to forget.. o_0

-My lovely sam-soon/my name is kim sam soon dvd.
-PSP (i'm going to buy it with my own money)
-Sewing machine!! (so i can practice sewing)
-shoes from doc martin? hahaha. xD
-Money (yay! so i can spend it all on new york)
-Scarf and cardigans. (damn. i really need those.)
-Umm... umm.. A BRA FROM VICTORIA SECRET! boo hoo. TT_TT
-Azumanga Daioh dvd. (it cheers me up. xD)
-Vivienne Westwood *damn. wish they had VW in vegas. boo hoo. >_<*

Hmm.. i guess that's it.. there's more to it.. but.. oh wells. heh. heh.

Byuu.. I'm going to list all of the episodes for coffee prince w/ subtitles.
I'm doing this for "jes jess" since she's have a hard time finding one. hahaha. XD
AH! BTW, episode 2 part 2 through episode 9 are all raw! So go to these sites to read a brief summary of the episodes so you'll kinda get what's going to happen in the episodes.

episode 2:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-second-cup/
episode 3:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-third-cup/
episode 4:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-fourth-cup/
episode 5:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-fifth-cup/
episode 6:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-sixth-cup/
episode 7:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-seventh-cup/
episode 8:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-eighth-cup/
episode 9:http://www.dramabeans.com/2007/07/coffee-prince-ninth-cup/


Episode 1:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v12130806cR9HPR4?searchId=3113625261862370016&rank=19
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v12242426ZJQFYrk
Episode 2:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1329597WjR8Cckj?searchId=4527719267820554172&rank=2
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v749622pw7Abm46
Episode 3:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v771670JYTQ3JSF
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v771671A4PJggXN
Episode 4:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v771675fJzB2ZR2
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v7716749pQ5pWFy
Episode 5:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v806434jSRPnccm
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v806435YyCDcFn7
Episode 6:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v812947kaWPe24f
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v812946yCEdjR8Z
Episode 7:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v849876FmHf4FPe
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v849877x8Xwx94S
Episode 8:Part :http://www.veoh.com/videos/v855075wCgTHb8k
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v8550762A5p7eka
Episode 9:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v885532kG2Gctw2
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v885531RaNSQZ75
Episode 10:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v9088858xZwPmGy
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v908886SmyHWCM5
Episode 11:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v998003xhq4stm4
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1002006HTk2a9sY
Episode12:Part1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v997998mZPhgfGq Part 2http://www.veoh.com/videos/v997999BgH3hNAx
Episode 13:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1010791AGbY4AgC
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1010794YctSbnpF
Episode 14;Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1045574bXRZYMMA
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1045576pMHeTqSJ
Episode 15;Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1045577WGT3AEN3
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1045578fHbJkggr
Episode 16:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1062171xnzrBJyh
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1062170aDwec5fB
Last Episode:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v10937413C543gbA
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1094449MzhYE2Sy
Special:Part 1:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1115853yYBa6RNP
Part 2:http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1115854mywDnjTE
Coffee Prince NG:http://www.veoh.com/series/Coffee?searchId=6297617192012616972&rank=8

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE
HOPE YOU GET LOTS OF CANDIES!
AND DON'T GET CAVITIES!
BRUSH YOUR TEETH AFTER EATING CANDIES!
YAYAYAYYAYYAYAY

AHH SHIT!
i forgot TO SAY "YAY FOR MY 100TH ENTRY!"
oh well. it's too late now.. well..
"YAY FOR MY 103th ENTRY!!"
once i reach to 200, or.. around 150, i'll switch to YAPLOG! yay!!
I LOVERS YOU GUYS!

So..
ENOUGH OF MY DEPRESSION TALK.
hehe.
Well.. damn. i love today.
actually.. I LOVE CLOUDY DAYS.
It's awesome. duddee. haha.
Doo Doo Doo. man.. it's sad.. my dear tsuki is dying.
MORE SUN MORE SUN
i shall do the sun dance for my dear tsuki baby.
hAHA. well. today, it was okey.
Talked a lot in french with jess.
again..
"FAMILY MATTERS"
PHUU. after that, hmm.. nothing special happened. heh.
AH! OH YEA.
lunch was cool.
DAMMIT VICKY! why do you have to sit with the guys?
it's lonely without you.*CRIES*
Well.. orchestra was.. BORING. and STUPID.
dammit. Sasha was being emo today.
welll.. WHO THE FUCK CARES.
i don't.
aww.. that sounded mean.
fine. i'll pretend that i'll care.
Gosh darn. why can't there be any middle finger emoji.
GRAWRR. hahah.
So.. i have an essay to type up.
i think i did enough of my spamming today..
CIAO

gosh darn..
I hate how parents don't give a damn about their kids.
Like.. sure they do.. but they don't try to see how their kids feel.
Stop being a dumbass and ruin their fucking lives.
After all that, do you call yourself parents?
grr..
SIghh..
So like.. in the car on Saturday.. me and my mommie were talking.
WE were just talking some random shit.
And then we came upon the topics of FAMILY MATTERS.
So.. my mom's all like..
"You know.. if i had the money, i would live by myself without your dad."
and i'm like..." okay..." but after hearing that.. it made me sad.. and i felt really.. really.. i don't know.. SAD SAD SAD!
i mean.. gosh. my mom's TOO open. there are some things she shouldn't say to her own kid.
WEll.. it made me sad because.. i don't want my parents to seperate. even though i see how hard it is seeing them together all happy.. since my dad's often away for work.
*sigh*
I hate it when my mom keeps telling that she wants to live by herself without my dad. And when i try to argue back, she says.. " IT'S MY LIFE. IM NOT GOING TO BE HELD DOWN BECAUSE OF YOU. YOUR'E GOING TO GO TO COLLEGE, AND I'M LEFT WITH NOTHING" so.. i can't really argue back. she's right. it's her life. but.. gosh darn. it's so hard. i feel burdened by the thought of my parents seperating.
Sure, they're not going to get divorced. but they might.
i mean.. they don't even fucking love eachother anymore.
.......
gosh. im confused of what i'm trying to say.
I just feel stressed out because of my parents.
Ever since i was little, my mom was alone with me. My dad was always away to korea for business. etc.,On July i finally had a father and daughter talk. He said that he wants to travel by himself once he gets older and leave my mom. and i'm like.. " wtf.. .why would you do that? mom will be by herself.. how will she be able to live in lonelyness" but.. yea.. he said the same thing my mom said. "IT'S MY LIFE. I DON'T WANT TO BE BURDENED BY YOUR MOM/ YOU" man..
i feel like crying.
it's sad.
can't i just have a normal family?
a family that loves eachother?
You know.. i had a chance to go to L.A, next year and go to high school there.
So getting to a california college can be easier.
But.. i don't want to leave.. because of my mom.
i get scared thinking about my lonely mom.
What will she do without me?
I get really scared thinking about it.
So.. i'm going to give up the idea of going to L.A for high school.
Damn...
*tears tears*
it's stupid... but..
I get jealous of my cousin.
Since they get so much love from both of their parents.
yea.
i noticed this a long time ago.. but..
LOVE WON'T LAST IF THE TWO PEOPLE ARE FAR AWAY.
Love can't last.
SO.. think about it.
When i marry, i'm not going to make the same mistake my parents did.
I'm not.
I don't want my kids to go through that.
So SCREW those 1900's parents.
It's 2007.
It's a new era and life.
I'm going to make the best of it.

MmmMmm..
Aloe juice and tangerines.
Man.. winter's coming so soon.
Yay! because i love winter.
but NEY.. BECAUSE it's going to be a pain in the ass getting up in the cold. brr.. and my mom's so asian.. she never turns on the heater. BOO HOO.
So.. IT'S JUST ME AND MY BLANKET. BOO HOO. TT_TT

omg. i love this DRINK
so healthy, yet good good.
So like.. it's green tea fusion mixed with honey.
ufufu. i never knew green tea can taste this sweet. TRY IT
which reminds me.. i should really start finishing my myspace layout.
boo.

Phuu.
This picture was taken on friday. keke.
Well.. gosh darn. the view was really really pretty from my view.
but.. from the camera's view.. BOO.
heh. SO.. i went to grandma's after going to the library.
wee~
muahaha.
i love going to grandma's house.
only because it's huge.
and green green backyards that grows VEGGIES
boo.. i already made an entry about going to grandma's house months ago.
but.. i want to make another one. haha.

haha. xD you can see a part of my skinny ass mom.

yay! part of garden.

Shyeah dude. pardon me for the ugly slippers. heh. i just got any slippers from my grandma's house. Green Green. la la la~

PATCHES OF LETTUCES! er.. whatever those veggies are called.